Friday, February 8, 2013
90 Days+
I made it....3 months not smoking...sorry I haven't posted my progress... I did start the no-nicotine liquid the second week of December...so no more intake of nicotine vapor either!!! I distracted myself with Borderlands 2 & DeadSpace 2... This nicotine whore still craves to smoke...thinking about hypnosis to help with that...really don't want to try prescription drugs. Was prompted to write today as an old acquaintance is starting a life changing journey of his own...wishing you luck Ron!! And YES!!! The world still stinks to me...thinking about rubbing Vicks under my nose to just leave the house!! I am able to breathe better....no cough....easy for me to carry my 6 month old nephew around when I go to visit him!!! Also don't feel guilty giving him kisses on his cheeks & head as I no longer smell like tobacco! Have gained too much weight though..really bummed about that...but Spring is almost here and need to get this body moving doing yard work, camping, etc. Can't wait to get started on rearranging the garden for more pumpkins this year!!!
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
30 Days and counting!!!
Okay...so yesterday was 30 full days of not smoking cigarettes...some may say I'm cheating by using an E-Cig...I say my e-cig only has 3 ingredients..propylene glycol, nicotine and water versus the 6000 chemicals in one traditional cigarette. I'm proud because my last attempt was not so successful and I would still take a drag off a cigarette or completely smoke a whole one. Currently I am only taking drags off the e-cigarette a couple times a day....soon I will be utilizing the no-nicotine solution of the e-cig...check out their website for more information http://www.my7s.com/ .
Yes, I have gained weight but will am continuing to address that as well....
Yes, I have gained weight but will am continuing to address that as well....
Saturday, November 10, 2012
7 Days!!!!
Well...I've made it 7 whole days of not smoking as of today!!!! Not one drag, threw away the ashtrays...don't carry my lighter anymore. Wow...I can't tell you how incredibly hard it has been.......the Hubby has been very supportive..I am blessed to have him in my life. I think pulling into the gas station was the hardest...this was the usual place I bought my cigs. I don't have anything witty to say today....just can't wait to not think about smoking anymore. I think I might look into hypnotherapy.
Halloween 2012
Couple of pics to share for this Halloween
Homegrown Pumpkins!!!
This plant tried to strangle the tomatoes and over take my koi pond!!
Our Biggest the Hubby grew...about 50 pounder!!!
My Zombie babies wanted to dress up for Halloween this year!!
My 13yr old....she went as an 80's pop singer....quickest hair & makeup I've done for Halloween LOL considering I was a teen in the 80's!!!
Our new prop!!! Love him...he is pretty scary!!
The Hubby & I!!!
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
Time to Rethink My Life.....this Blog is changing!
So, today being exactly 1 week after my favorite Holiday of the year....I have some news to share....I smoked my last cigarette on Nov. 4th. I have been nicotine's whore for too long and now must part ways with the Pimp known as Marlboro Menthol :(
So I have decided to document my journey of quitting here on my Halloween blog....seems
appropriate as only a few people care to peruse it.
I first tried to smoke at age 12...yep..first babysitting job...baby was down for a nap...one of the parents smoked Marlboro reds, left the pack right on the coffee table, and I tried one. Yuck!!! but boy did I feel cool!! Important...grown-up!! Like my Dad & Mom...they both smoked. Now it's hard to smoke at that age...you can't buy them only knick a few from your Dad's coat pocket or from the pack in the car.
I started seriously smoking when I was 17...I looked well over 18 and was rarely carded. Twenty perfect little presents and my Zippo.... I was always happy. Some of my human friends nagged me a little...worried I was going to develop lung cancer, etc. I ignored them...hell, I wasn't going to live to see 30 years old in the first place....why give the Coroner a healthy body to cut on....let's give him something interesting!!!
At age 22....DVT (Deep Vein Thrombosis) in the left leg...this amazing little clot decided to put me in the hospital for 5 days having broken off and went to my lung....all the while I'm trying to figure out how to get off the 4th floor of the hospital to "go have a smoke." Dodged that bullet!!! Still smoking...it's me and the Marlboro Man against the World!!!
At age 31...meet the man of my dreams...he doesn't mind my tattoos, my ample figure nor my cigarettes!!! Jackpot!!! We fall in love and marry...still have my Marlboro Man as well...life couldn't be any better!!
Lalalal....smoking around my hubby and kids....lalalalal...try to justify....lies....smoke, smoke, smoke....
At age 40...can't breathe...this is just a stupid cold and my menthol always helps me breathe better...not getting better.....Dr. appointment reveals pnuemonia...how can I have pnuemonia in June??? Can't breathe..throw a half a carton of coffin nails in the trash....getting better. Wow recovered without a hospital stay...out 3 weeks from work but made it back and not smoking.
But 5 months later....Mom calls...the COPD took your Grandpa..he was 89 years old...he quit too late..stopped smoking in his 60's but that wasn't soon enough. I can't take the pain....must..have my...lighter.....where is it?...drive to the gas station....My Marlboro Man!!! all dressed in white and green...flick..light...inhale....awwww...all better. Tell Hubby it's too hard to get through the funeral without just stepping out with my Mom, My Aunt, my sisters to smoke one....well then maybe just one more.....then 2 months later...back at the pack-a-day grind. :(
On November 2, 2012, Hubby takes me to visit my nephew (3 months old) and My Aunt, My Mom (both long time smokers)....Mom is really getting thin and that cough of hers not getting better. My Aunt...she has been on oxygen for some time now....told the Hubby if she doesn't quit smoking there won't be a Doctor in town that will treat her...she's gone through a few already. She's my Godmother...I love her dearly...like my Mom....they will be lucky to live as long as their Father..... On the way home is when the Hubby relays the info about my Aunt and mentions how very thin Mom is.....I think about my little nephew...he will be 20 when I'm 63 years old...will I get to see him when he's 20?? Will I be dead?
On November 4, 2012....my Grandpa's birthday I smoked my last cigarette at 10:00am....whew...can't stop crying....want to smoke, want to smoke....
Crying in the shower...crying on the way to work....feeling so alone....cry some more....come home from work... Hubby & youngest Daughter are handling me with "kid-glove"....feeling so sorry for myself.
Can't look my Hubby in the face....the thought of smoking is paramount to cheating on Him...I can't do that...but can't look at him in the eyes...he will see my desire for the Marlboro Man.
Nov. 6....no stop at the gas station...went to work...didn't bum a cig from anyone at work...proud of myself...drive home crying because I am having a bad craving....fill my mouth full of gum to make it home...whew....got through it.
Today....I start typing on my blog....wow had to get that out...good news is I think I'm getting some feeling back in my toes (just a little bit)...the pain on the right side of my chest is not there...but gawd the world stinks!!! It's almost break time....I'm panicky...but will call the Hubby...he's sexier than the Marlboro Man ya know...keep your fingers crossed, pray to the fairies that I don't reclaim my title as Nicotine Whore.
So I have decided to document my journey of quitting here on my Halloween blog....seems
appropriate as only a few people care to peruse it.
I first tried to smoke at age 12...yep..first babysitting job...baby was down for a nap...one of the parents smoked Marlboro reds, left the pack right on the coffee table, and I tried one. Yuck!!! but boy did I feel cool!! Important...grown-up!! Like my Dad & Mom...they both smoked. Now it's hard to smoke at that age...you can't buy them only knick a few from your Dad's coat pocket or from the pack in the car.
I started seriously smoking when I was 17...I looked well over 18 and was rarely carded. Twenty perfect little presents and my Zippo.... I was always happy. Some of my human friends nagged me a little...worried I was going to develop lung cancer, etc. I ignored them...hell, I wasn't going to live to see 30 years old in the first place....why give the Coroner a healthy body to cut on....let's give him something interesting!!!
At age 22....DVT (Deep Vein Thrombosis) in the left leg...this amazing little clot decided to put me in the hospital for 5 days having broken off and went to my lung....all the while I'm trying to figure out how to get off the 4th floor of the hospital to "go have a smoke." Dodged that bullet!!! Still smoking...it's me and the Marlboro Man against the World!!!
At age 31...meet the man of my dreams...he doesn't mind my tattoos, my ample figure nor my cigarettes!!! Jackpot!!! We fall in love and marry...still have my Marlboro Man as well...life couldn't be any better!!
Lalalal....smoking around my hubby and kids....lalalalal...try to justify....lies....smoke, smoke, smoke....
At age 40...can't breathe...this is just a stupid cold and my menthol always helps me breathe better...not getting better.....Dr. appointment reveals pnuemonia...how can I have pnuemonia in June??? Can't breathe..throw a half a carton of coffin nails in the trash....getting better. Wow recovered without a hospital stay...out 3 weeks from work but made it back and not smoking.
But 5 months later....Mom calls...the COPD took your Grandpa..he was 89 years old...he quit too late..stopped smoking in his 60's but that wasn't soon enough. I can't take the pain....must..have my...lighter.....where is it?...drive to the gas station....My Marlboro Man!!! all dressed in white and green...flick..light...inhale....awwww...all better. Tell Hubby it's too hard to get through the funeral without just stepping out with my Mom, My Aunt, my sisters to smoke one....well then maybe just one more.....then 2 months later...back at the pack-a-day grind. :(
On November 2, 2012, Hubby takes me to visit my nephew (3 months old) and My Aunt, My Mom (both long time smokers)....Mom is really getting thin and that cough of hers not getting better. My Aunt...she has been on oxygen for some time now....told the Hubby if she doesn't quit smoking there won't be a Doctor in town that will treat her...she's gone through a few already. She's my Godmother...I love her dearly...like my Mom....they will be lucky to live as long as their Father..... On the way home is when the Hubby relays the info about my Aunt and mentions how very thin Mom is.....I think about my little nephew...he will be 20 when I'm 63 years old...will I get to see him when he's 20?? Will I be dead?
On November 4, 2012....my Grandpa's birthday I smoked my last cigarette at 10:00am....whew...can't stop crying....want to smoke, want to smoke....
Crying in the shower...crying on the way to work....feeling so alone....cry some more....come home from work... Hubby & youngest Daughter are handling me with "kid-glove"....feeling so sorry for myself.
Can't look my Hubby in the face....the thought of smoking is paramount to cheating on Him...I can't do that...but can't look at him in the eyes...he will see my desire for the Marlboro Man.
Nov. 6....no stop at the gas station...went to work...didn't bum a cig from anyone at work...proud of myself...drive home crying because I am having a bad craving....fill my mouth full of gum to make it home...whew....got through it.
Today....I start typing on my blog....wow had to get that out...good news is I think I'm getting some feeling back in my toes (just a little bit)...the pain on the right side of my chest is not there...but gawd the world stinks!!! It's almost break time....I'm panicky...but will call the Hubby...he's sexier than the Marlboro Man ya know...keep your fingers crossed, pray to the fairies that I don't reclaim my title as Nicotine Whore.
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Really enjoyed Halloween last year
Am hoping the Hubby & I have as much fun this year as last year!!! My sister sent me this picture...didn't even know it existed until today...great times. Also..no one knew my sister was pregnant at the time....little Sammy came into the world this past July!!! Yes...auntie has already purchased two Halloween costumes for my little nephew!!
With the High Holiday on a Wednesday this year...we opted for full-faced latex mask for Doug and a half-face mask for me as we both work. We do have the following two days off from work and are looking forward to that.
Thursday, September 27, 2012
new site to checkout
Well....I've been checking out more Halloween sites....have to tell a funny story. On Facebook, a friend liked a site called Everyday is Halloween...I loved the daily postings & pics and the other day the administrator shared her tumbler account....wouldn't you know she is the best friend of my little sister out in California!!! Wow...what a small world...I've been in Colorado for the last 20 some odd years and my little sister is still in San Jose, California. Please check out her sites...they are spooktacular!!!
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